Life’s Colorful Embrace and Transformation

•March 10, 2013 • Leave a Comment


I want to go swimming in a sea of colors,

allowing it to fully take hold of me for one of the most immersive artistic experiences I can imagine.

The reds would overtake my blood and heart,

the oranges would bleed into my ears,

the yellows would seep into my bones,

the greens would fuse into my hair,

the blues would overtake my eyes,

and the violets would cover my skin.

As I become one with art,

it would wrap itself around me.

I’d be lost and found in a fully immersive experience.

One that could only be compared to dying and living at the same time,

that second between excitement and fear,

the spark of joy felt as a kid,

and being in heaven and hell itself

in the presence of all that is good and all that is evil

and understanding that we are one in the same.


The Liebester Award

•February 22, 2013 • Leave a Comment

I was nominated for the Liebster Award by This girl is great and has a beautiful way of writing. I highly recommend you follow her.

Liebster Award Rules:

1. Post 11 things about yourself
2. Answer the questions given to you by the nominator
3. Nominate 11 blogs (newer, up and coming blogs, with less than (or thereabouts) 200 followers) and inform them
4. Compose 11 new questions for your nominees
5. And don’t forget to post of the Liebster Award Badge to your page (grab it from the internet)

11 Facts:

1. I’m a procrastinator but I always get things done.

2. Love musicals

3. Studying English/Creative Writing and Screenwriting

4. I have a corgi mixed dog and a boston terrier mixed dog that I love

5. Family is extremely important to me

6. I am multivocal

7. I love to read

8. I am trying to write a poem a day

9. I used to run cross country and am hoping to do my first half marathon at the end of this semester.

10. I love to watch movies

11. I can literally spend hours reading, listening to music, watching movies, or hanging with friends.

Questions from Nominator:

1. What is your favorite book?

Book series: I love Harry Potter, Novel: I love Enders Game and The Outsiders. Most recent favorite book: The Perks of Being a Wallflower

2. What would you do for the rest of your life if money was no object?

Go to college and learn all that I could.

3. What is your favorite meal you like to cook?

Love me some pasta or anything with cheese.

4. What is your most favorite scene from a movie?

That is a toss up between three scenes:

-In The Kings Speech when Bertie finally delivers his speech. That whole scene is fantastic.

-In Juno, the scene where Juno tells Bleeker that she is pregnant. There is something so coming of age in it that I love.

-In Driving Lessons, there is this scene where Julie Walters character is completely ranting about Rupert Grint and is accusing him of being gay and just going on and on in the middle of a public bus. Downright hilarious.

5. How do you like having a blog?
I am loving it so far. Exactly the outlet that I need for my poetry.

6. What object in your life could you never live without?

Object….Okay swear I’m not trying to sound corny, but paper and pen. I love being able to write things out on paper. It’s an odd love.

7. What/where has been your favorite vacation?

Seattle Washington. Loved the art there.

8. If you could go anywhere in the world..where would you go?

England without a doubt

9. What is your biggest pet peeve?

One of my pet peeves as a human being is when people who have played/play basketball for no apparent reason decide that they are going to air shoot an invisible basketball into an invisible hoop. The fuck did you just accomplish? Really? You just looked like an idiot!

10. What movie are you most excited to see this year?

Star Trek 2 so far.

11. I will also steal a question from my nominator…If you could share one thing you learned from this year what would it be?

Don’t force love to happen. Just let it happen.

11 Questions for Nominees:

1. What is the best memory you have as a kid?

2. What is your favorite movie?

3. Favorite book?

4. What did you want to be growing up?

5. Where would you live if you had no ties?

6. What is the best memory you have from your life?

7. If you could describe your life in one song, what would it be?

8. What is one part of your life that you are most proud of and one part that you are least proud of?

9. What is your biggest pet peeve?

10. If money wasn’t an object, what would you do?

11. Have you changed in the past two years and if so, in what way?

11 Nominees:

1. luvslost

2. The Lyceum

3. An African Perspective by Uyi the Calabash Writer. 

4. The Orange Chair

5. adbum20

6. Imaginary Fox

7. We are all stardust.

8. the life of jenna marie

9. Poetry and Paranoia

10.  aléatoirefire

11.  work your way out

What I feel

•February 21, 2013 • Leave a Comment


I wish I knew exactly how to describe how I am feeling

There is happiness, there is grief

There is joy, yet there is sorrow

I’m not sure how to put it into words

I feel like I should be able to just express

but I can’t

The words get lost in a jumbled mess,

get repainted, rehashed

and just like that it’s something indescribable

What do I feel?

Is this pain or ecstasy

Is confusion causing this block in my mind

that I can’t put my finger on what the feeling is

I know there is joy, acceptance, and feelings there

I just can’t figure out how these others work in a whole

thoughts are running around in my head

and won’t stop for now

Maybe it’s fear

I might fear the worst

I think that I fear that what I feel is fake

Is the world real

Not the actual world but mine

There are all these people, but are they friends

and those I know are friends, are they close?

Do I feel that emotionally connected

that I think I won’t be able to live without them

I wish I could figure out how to put these feelings away

and just trust that my life is going to be ok.

that this is real and that life is right

But with the way things went a while ago

I can’t help but not trust anything…

Warm Regards from The Idiotic Idiosyncrasies

•February 20, 2013 • 1 Comment

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I’m not doing so well.

The exterior of myself is fake.

But how could anyone see that?

I’m “loving life”, “jovial”, “fantastic”.

But there are only so many positive ways I view myself.

All the rest are negative.

I’m a failure in my eyes.

There are so many things I have been unsuccessful in my life.

No car, no job, barely making ends meet.

Friendzoned and friendzoning.

Pushing away my friends and pulling closer my enemies.

Running away from the truth and running towards the lies.

And now here is where I am: facing that bottle and sweet.

Another night alone, another night with no friends.

And what am I faced with? A high and buzz.

So send me those regards, those I’m sorry’s and I’m here’s.

And let me feel like I’m loved for a second through words.

So that way when I get back to it,

I have that little more glimmer of hope so that the devil won’t get me again.

But then again, where am I going?

Why does the devil make his presence known but I have to search for God.

And now what am I going to do?

Send those warm regards? I’ll ignore them.

This party is meant for one, but yet two others are present.

and which of the two am I supposed to understand and know and love.

I’m confused and afraid and fearing the idiotic idiosyncrasy of my life…

The Tree On The Hill

•February 19, 2013 • Leave a Comment


‘Twas up on that hill, by the lone tree

that I saw you there in all of your beauty.

But life moved on, and you left me there,

my heart in my hand, my blood running bare.

I stood at the tree on top of the hill,

you visited me rarely, but there I stood still.

Years past and resentment towards you grew.

within me I found a person I never knew.

I did not like the one that I found.

With regret, in that person I did drown.

On top of that hill, I finally left the tree.

I needed a time to finally be free.

But every now and then,

to the hill I go again,

in hopes that I might find,

you and a way to be saved

from the person in my mind.